Life is like a joke.

Identification

1991,12july

i wish there is someone for me,
but i learned to be independent
cause i know that day might never come.
&i don't believe in hopes.

My name is Vans.

Desires

a Canon D500 camera,
HTC Hero,
a sewing machine,
a blueprint table,
& of course a bike.

For your infor, i do not like to use my father's money so most of the things are paid by myself as
I AM NOT SOME RICH KID

Is this all what I want?

Spoken

the note that said...

Do I have the freedom of speech?

Endless

layout: lyricaltragedy
inspiration: outgone
N284!

ruiliang
steph
benjamin
celeste
chrysan
dasiree
deanne
ignasia
ivan
james
jeremy
jisiang
jonathan
kevin
liying
nicholas
nicolette
peiyi
rita
viona
Am I close to them?

I wrote a love song on; 5:14 PM | Thursday, June 19, 2008

im having my blues again

im thinking, what if i know it earlier.

what if im willing to step out,

what if im willing to give up and go all the way?

most probably, i will not have such a pressure on me.

God, im always thinking why do people have a unbalance.

Unbalance as in many things,

when people can be really be freaky

&becomes pressuring to someone else.

i was not feeling very good yesterday as...

i knew i did not step up in faith but only hesitations.

i will not dare to give any excuses but

i really felt an atmosphere of pressure and not faith.

God, give me that grace You want me to have,

give me the faith You want me to own.

i just hope everyone just stop giving me pressure,

as i do not want to go through that horrible period again.

im trying to learn how to talk, react, see and hear,

yet 'people' try to put me down which i dont understand why!

when these symptons start showing up again, i just pray and rebuke it.

i want to be teachable, spiritually more mature &do His will.

but i really pray you all will give me some time to be build my self-esteem again.

seriously i need time, all i need is time.

i question myself once again,

am i so vulnerable?

God, stand with me like no one do.